Sunday, April 29, 2012

Much Too Much to Say

I've been struggling to make a decent post over the summer but I find myself staring blankly on the page. I tried to compose myself and revert back to my old editor-in-chief form and try to place random thoughts in the multitude of topics that just ran through my head. I start to type my nothingness and then decide to put it off if not erase the whole thing. I guess there's something about writing that still appalls me. I can't seem to wash away the intoxicated feeling I had when I was very much obliged to write. I really thought that after a hiatus or two that I'll be able to regain the passion that was just burnt out of my system. Apparently, I can't just blurt out all of the things I've been longing to say. Not anymore. Perhaps in my private blog, I can write to my heart's content. But here, I just can't simply do that. No, I can't do it without hurting one or two along the way.

I suppose what I'm feeling is also due to the fact that I've been so used to putting off the verbalizations of things that I would normal rant about. It's like a switch I've learned to develop and use ever since life became a little too busy. I just switch it off and start to focus on seemingly more important things... The modifiable things. And now, the consequences of my actions have materialized. The empty pages and the notable widened intervals are the product of my choices. This will persist unless I choose otherwise. I suppose it's time to choose otherwise.

I have much too much to say. Because I've chosen to keep quiet when I was dying to say something. I forced the feelings and hold the reservations too much that I believe it is high time to let it be and let it burst.

So, I shall burst with much too much to say.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Medicine Hiatus = Non-Academic resumption

Finally got my grades. I guess they're pretty good. I worked hard for them. Now, I'm off to a vacation. I suppose I'll blog more now that it's summer. :)

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Cock Smashing

Shuttlecock smashing.

Don't go green on me!

I've been craving for the sound of my smashes detonating as the shuttlecock kisses my racket and smacks down the opponents' side of the court. I miss the insane power and speed that I've placed on every shot that I make. Unfortunately, it's not as potent as my trademark shots but it will do. To compensate, I'm trying to make my other shots work now. :) So far, it's good. :)

Monday, April 16, 2012


I haven't really noticed the intensity of the summer heat not until I was subjected to it while waiting in line for the processing of my passport. I have no idea one Lon this process would be but I'm quite grateful that my brother lent me his iPad and it has an internet access and lots of games what I would normally play. I'm supposed to attend training later but I think I won't make it on time. Is is taking too long.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Sleepless Good Friday

"The Voice, pag dumating ka sa Pilipinas, mag-aaudition ako." 

I shouldn't have said those words because I know that it would be quite a difficult thing to fulfill. 

It's Holy Week 2012 right now. Specifically, in the middle of Good Friday and Black Saturday. It's actually 3:22 AM on my Mac watch and that would mean that it's really 2:40 or something. I should be tucked in bed sound asleep just like the rest of my family. We will be going to Tagaytay in a while and I am so excited to eat at one of my favorite places ever, Sonya's Garden. Unfortunately, I had to open my Twitter account and read the replies sent to me. One of those replies were my classmate's which stated that The Voice is being franchised in the Philippines. All the while, I thought it was X Factor but it was actually, The Voice. Now, I am contemplating an auditioning for the show. I have never done something like this and the idea alone would immediately be shut down by my family. And it's not in my plans as well. I don't know what to do really. A huge part of me is wanting to audition for the show while there is a big part of me that's just being swallowed by fear. If I were to be completely honest, this is something that I really really want. I mean this is just the thing that I've been waiting for. The reality is, I don't think I have what it takes. I don't think I have that much of a talent to impress the public and to back me up on my dreams. I don't mean to push aside becoming a doctor. I want to be a doctor too. But I would love it more to sing. I don't know. I'm quite crazy right now. I don't know what to make of what I've just learned. I googled the show and I've read that they'll be having the last auditions next week. Eeps. Let's see. Probably for the next season? I don't know. Grrr. I hate it. :(