Saturday, November 12, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
I know you're not yet ready.
I am not too.
But I don't want to bottle everything up
and say nothing when I really feel for you.
So, if in case you feel for me too,
I am willing to wait until forever
just don't make me wait in vain
especially when you know I've been through this hell before
and it will crush my heart
if you just let me fall
It's over and done. It's been years. But I still can't get over what happened. There are days when I still couldn't accept the fact that he is gone and that he actually committed suicide. I still can't forgive myself for not doing anything at the least. I know for a fact that I can't do anything if he really wanted to kill himself but I can't help but think that I could have made him feel better and helped him get out of his depression. I guess it's because of the TV why I would be this affected with what had happened years ago. However, I am usually a mess during these times because his birthday and death anniversary is near. I still relive the moments when he last talked to me and when I last found out how things went. It was painful. We all had to accept it and move on. But the scars are still there. After what happened to him, I vowed to myself that I would do whatever I can to prevent something like this from happening again. I felt the pain that a friend/brother would feel if he loses someone by suicide and I don't dare inflict the same pain to any of my friends. Blah. This is so crazy, insane shitness. I hate this but this is what it is and I have to deal with it. I guess I'll just visit his grave soon.. I hope he's happy wherever he is now.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Strike 2. One more and it's astalavista baby.
Choose between hot-tempered and difficult-to-please.
Swerte. We have the perfect excuse. :D
Yes. A lot of people hate me but I believe there are more that like me. Well, at least I'm being who I am. :)
I will have a concert and the chorales and singing groups I've performed with have to showcase their talents. It'll be a celebration of music and arts. I'll have a duet with Kyla, Jed Madela, Martin Nievera, Gary Valenciano, Adele. I'll sing with Nursing Chorale and Medicine Chorale. I'll have a duet with my singing partners before. I'll perform with Cluster D Medwards and have a reunion of the Hairspray crew plus my high school class' West Side Story. :)) I would love to have that for the last day of my life. :)))))
Hindi. Tao ako.
I give when I need to and I take when I have no other choice. I try as much as I can to keep it balanced.
She gave me presents for my birthday.. She didn't do it just for a day. It was a series of anonymous gift giving and surprises. I didn't even know who she was that time. :))
Thursday, November 3, 2011
If I were to turn back time, I won't change a thing. There's a reason for doing these things. I'd stick to it.
Yes. I think almost everyone has one.
Yes. :) I'm lucky to have these friends. :)
I'd rather not. It is a composite of my being and altering anything would result to a different me. Things happen for a reason. It's best to just accept it and make the best out of it.
But to answer this in a restated question of: "What year was the most difficult for me?", I would say 2005 was challenging.
Yeah. My friends. :)
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Nakakamiss din pala yung sangkatutak mong tanong. (BUT do not take this statement as a trigger) Haha! :)
Don't worry! When the mood hits me, I shall indulge and bombard. :D
Unfortunately, in some situations, that's how it is.
Everything is ticklish. Thus, I don't like being touched.
I do sleep. Although I wish I don't need to, I still do. First thing? Pee.
I see no point in doing so. It will always be black. :))
It's either I sing or I treat the ailments of people. Go figure which path I'm taking now. :)
Yes. Unfortunately, I'm quite allergic to alcohol especially if it's not processed well or if it's not an "okay brand". I went red once when I tried a bottle of San Miguel Light. Same thing happened with certain brands of red wine.
Honestly, yes. I do know my limits though. ;)