Monday, January 31, 2011


I guess no one can ever figure out the misery running through my psyche unless they have the unfortunate ability to read my mind and sense my emotions. 

It has been one tiring ride to have trudged on and yet I find myself in the middle of the road trying to make well with scraps of junk trying to grasp something when there is nothing there to hold on to. That's basically the story of my everyday life. Trying to make do keep the flame alive when there is no fuel to even let it ignite. I don't know how much I will be able to endure. My resilience is proving to be frail and the efforts are again, as always futile. It used to be a great grand psy-war. But now, it has become physical - somnolent detachment seems to be the only resolution when the corporal won't even cooperate for some fragments of time. It used to be able to endure the tests of difficulties and challenges. Now, it's just succumbing to the greatest threats of wear and tear. How much more will I be able to take? I'll soon find out. But as smart as I always try to be, I don't take risks that I cannot handle. So there, I'll take some resignation to the fact that I am no superhuman. I need my rest and I can only get it when I give it to myself. 

I bid farewell to the non-essentials and the postpone-able. For now, I need to keep the eyes on the prize and chase for that end in mind. Mediocrity is not acceptable, failure or anything less of the goal is not acceptable and regrets will never take place in my life as I continue with this race. 

Monday, January 10, 2011

It just really sucks how those people who are so close to you can be the ones to hurt you. I guess I should never let anyone in... I can't let anyone hurt me.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

It seems that I can update my blog only on weekends. Things went back to how it was as usual, only busier now. I just feel that need of having a break and getting loads of inspiration because everything has been drained like hell. It is one tiring week and everything seems to be falling apart. I need to make things work.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

When I'm too busy to really blog a post.

I would love to understand the other side of the coin but at some point, it cannot be tapped. There is no use crying over spilled milk but some stains are too messy to be overlooked. Mistakes can be forgiven. Things could be let go. But it would take place if someone would take heart and own up to the offense. Damage has been done but should damage be furthered? This is pointless and it might seem stupid at a point. However, the lesson has not been learned and it MUST be learned for things not to happen again. Too much damage has been done, too many words have been said and future words would be pointless and useless if this persists. 

Monday, January 3, 2011

Off to school blues

I now return to a place I don't know whether to hate or to love.

That's just the feeling that I have right now. I want a break. Heck! I need a break. I had one but it was not enough. I need more time to recover from the hell that was. But I suppose now's a good start to make it better. I will have a break soon. I just need to fix my life right now.

New discovery

I have to say that this blogger in itouch helps a bit. Hahaha. :)