Friday, October 28, 2011

Date tayo this sat @moa concert grounds? :)))

No thanks.

Ask, but with sense and substance please. Stupid anonymous questions WILL be ignored.

What do you want to do in life?

I only had two options back then. Either I'll be making a living as a singer or I'll be a doctor. Those are the 2 things that I see myself doing eveyrday for the rest of my life.

Ask, but with sense and substance please. Stupid anonymous questions WILL be ignored.

Tell me about a recent goal you accomplished.

I wanted to sing again. I auditioned for the Medicine Glee Club and I got in.

Ask, but with sense and substance please. Stupid anonymous questions WILL be ignored.

Do you consider yourself to be a giver or a taker? Why?

It depends on the situation. It depends on who I am with. I am capable of being both. Different people would say different things. If I'm with a giver, I am a taker. When I'm with a taker, I am a giver. I play both but I won't abuse.

Why? Because I believe in balance. I'd like to keep things balanced.

Ask, but with sense and substance please. Stupid anonymous questions WILL be ignored.

what is your favourite depressing song?

Tahan Na by Kyla

The story and the words used in telling the story in itself is already heartbreaking. The melody and how Kyla sang it was just... Wow.

Ask, but with sense and substance please. Stupid anonymous questions WILL be ignored.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

So Far, So Good

It's halfway our examinations and all I can say is, so far so good. I haven't hit below 70 for this shifting exams as compared with my 1st shifting exams where I didn't really get anything that reached 80 except for Anatomy. I'm already satisfied with my grades in Anatomy and Biochem. I'm happy with Prev Med. I never thought that it would feel that good to be exempted. How I wish I can manage to get exempted in all subjects but that is just not possible especially for me. I am not THAT smart. I am actually dreading Physiology and Histology. Those are the subjects that I need to do better at. So, I have to prepare over the weekend. But I just can't help but be grateful cause it's so far, so good amidst the pressure we have in Med School. 

Well, I start studying now. :)

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


Biochem is so long. I wish I have retained more than what I did. It would be an easier task then. I don't plan to pull an all-nighter. Just a semi one. I hope things work out for the best.

Oh yeah, I'm contemplating on dropping. It's far from my personality but I am thinking about it.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

The Vicious Cycle

I've entered med school knowing that it would be more difficult than what I am used to... I just didn't brace myself for this much disappointment. I must admit that I am quite an achiever back then. But now, I'm just a normal Joe. Heck, I'm now holding on for dear life. There will be days that I'll have my episodes of "high grade highs" and then I will sink down to my "low grade lows". There is no sense of stability. Basically, it's an absolute state of adventure where I would never really know what would happen to me or what would become of me. All I know is that I am trying to hold on to dear life and I feel that I am slowly slipping away. Reality bites but i just have to deal with it..

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Sleeping through

Today or tonight, I was supposed to go to a gathering with my friends. Kath was going to Shanghai for a year and she was throwing a party so that she could see us before she leaves. I was going to go since I don't have any plans for the day and I felt like I needed a reward for pushing through the whole week while I was sick and suspected to have dengue. Well, I wish I was able to go to the party but I wasn't. I slept in the afternoon and apparently, it reached the night. I slept through the event and I missed the gathering. I haven't seen my best friend for a long time now and I haven't seen much of my friends except for the ones in med school. I need to see my non-med friends soon. I really do and I will after the shifting examinations.

I need to make sure that I'll survive and do well. It sucks, I'm getting really low scores.. :( It's heartbreaking.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011


It took me a while to have some certain realizations yesterday. :))

If you really make an effort and read the textbook, it will actually make your life easier. I was trying to force myself to sleep last night because I was still a little bit sick and I know that  undue stress would do me no good. So, I started to toss and turn on my side of my mom's bed trying to find the spot where the sand of little old sand man was severely concentrated. But to my despair, I can't find the right spot. I'm still awake as ever and I don't know why. I really wanted to be knocked out because I know for a fact that I need more sleep for now than I usually do. After all, I wouldn't want the incident yesterday to happen. To those who don't know, I was sort of bed-bound yesterday. It was general body malaise that prevented me to rise from the bed and pretend as if nothing hurts and I'm a Popeye that took in heap-loads of Spinach. Anyhow, this morning wasn't a bearer of that bad news anyway despite the few hours of sleep. I believe it's just a little bit of colds and sore throat now. :) Going back, I just saw the parts that were also in the manual and it would be really useful if I give some time and not cram whatever I'm reading. More or less, whatever I've read last night is still in my head. Somehow, I should remember where I came from, what I've been through and what I am capable of. Perhaps, doing this would be helpful as I venture on in Med School. :)

Monday, October 3, 2011

Reality of the Situation

Here's the reality of the situation. I was absent in Biochem because I was so sick this morning that my head was aching and I can't get up. I am just pissed at some people who would still want me to go at far distances things that I am not really supposed to handle. They can be leaders themselves but they want to rely on someone else and that for me is pure suckiness and dependence. It's not my responsibility and I wish that you would have considered the circumstance. Ang hirap kasi parati na lang gusto mo na ikaw nakakatanggap. Pag di ka binigyan, madamot na kami. Kung umintindi ka kaya?

Excuse my outburst but I had to burst because my head is almost bursting. I hope this will be gone by tom..

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Hairspray High

You can't stop the beat! 

Haha. I'm still with a last song syndrome on that one. I really missed the stage. I really missed performing. I gave it a rest after high school because I focused on writing. I wonder how it would have been if I really participated in our class's (Nursing) production of Fame. I guess it would have been really fun. But anyhow, I wasn't able to contribute anything so I guess this was the chance. I loved the experience. We had to sacrifice a lot but it was all worth it. I'm glad that I joined and I've met a lot of amazing and talented people. :) I'm still having the hairspray high. Unfortunately, my body isn't.

Behind the Scenes
I only had an hour or two of sleep prior to the performance day. Needless to say, I was very much immunocompromised and whatever I did on that day was out of pure heart and unlimited supply of glucose from all the fruit juices that I gulped that day. I'm just grateful that everything went smoothly and I didn't faint. :) I just hope I would be able to recover tonight while I'm semi-preparing for the hell week that's coming. I hope things go well. :)