I just have to let this out. I can't seem to concentrate or think of anything else for now but that damaged and practically broken Z force 88 special edition. It just feels so sad and so bad that I had both of my rackets broken within this month and the other one is my main racket and it's a new one. It sucks. It hurts. It's as if I've lost a big part of me and I don't know how to recover. It's just so painful… I wish I didn't play last night. I wish it didn't get broken. I wish my partner didn't hit what was really mine. Haaaist. I can't do a damn thing about it anymore. It will be difficult to concentrate on my OSCE right now but I have to. If I don't, it will just be another problem that I wouldn't need.