The Vicious Cycle

I've entered med school knowing that it would be more difficult than what I am used to... I just didn't brace myself for this much disappointment. I must admit that I am quite an achiever back then. But now, I'm just a normal Joe. Heck, I'm now holding on for dear life. There will be days that I'll have my episodes of "high grade highs" and then I will sink down to my "low grade lows". There is no sense of stability. Basically, it's an absolute state of adventure where I would never really know what would happen to me or what would become of me. All I know is that I am trying to hold on to dear life and I feel that I am slowly slipping away. Reality bites but i just have to deal with it..